Have you ever felt that way? Have you ever experienced so much until your worn thin and you figure surely God will give you a break for a while; that after a season of a wide load of suffering and processing and healing… and learning from all the suffering and processing and healing, that the… Continue reading God just keeps wrecking me
(( Before you get started… please take a moment to start at My Cancer Story, Part 1: Hope … quite a road through Hope and Hell took place before reaching the end… I think you’ll find it’s worth knowing the beginning )) The word faith sounds lofty, and beautiful. Unfortunately, it’s used so much in… Continue reading My Cancer Story, Part 5: Healing! 🙂
Chemotherapy is like this: Drink a gallon of bleach, followed by a gallon of ammonia and have a seat. You won’t have to sit long before your body responds. Simply put, it sucks. My first trip to the cancer unit immediately threw me out of hysterectomy-depression mode into chemo-shock mode. I walked in to a… Continue reading My Cancer Story Part 4: Hell.
Death beds can be a rudely desperate place. It’s almost impossible to explain. Disappointment consumes your thoughts… your body, heart, and mind all become very, very still. Time stretches long from minutes to hours to days; your mind that used to race like crazy becomes vacant and quiet… plans stop altogether, and all the colors… Continue reading My Cancer Story Part 3: FAITH
My Papa is like Jesus’ cousin. Pretty sure. They’re just that close. Of all the visitors that came to hospital, even leaving their own Christmas Day gatherings to come and console my family, he was the most memorable. Well, he and my sister Stephanie. I hadn’t seen her in a while, and her crying was… Continue reading My Cancer Story, Part 2: Hope
2009 was a defining year – well SCRATCH THAT… 2009 did anything BUT define me… rather it was a year of adjustment and awakening. The beginning I can only describe as somewhat of a heavy, dark cloud that slowly cleared, making way for a sunrise. Eventually I got my grounding, but not before a painful… Continue reading 2009, in a very big nutshell.
Today was perfect. God always knows just what I need. My last day of freedom before the dance madness week kicks in for Dance Revolution next weekend, and I was desperately in need of a BUHREAK… from EVERYTHING. The morning never saw me. Woke up around noon 🙂 -which my body LOVED. then… Prayed *w/o… Continue reading Solitude is splendid 🙂
He is jealous for me, Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree, Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy. When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory, And I realize just how beautiful You are, And how great Your affections are for me. And oh, how… Continue reading afflictions eclypsed by glory…
There are four times in my life I can remember being so overcome by tears that it dropped me to my knees. Many more times than that have I been broken, have I cried, have I worshiped deeply, or shed tears even in great joy. But these four moments are specifically memorable, special and significant… Continue reading *Untitled.